In the beginning ∼ BC Becky

Below is a list of journal entries in chronological order:

It all started … Sat June 14, 2014
What should I hope for? Sat June 14, 2014
I am an academic Sun June 15, 2014
How do you prepare to lose a body part? Sun June 15, 2014
Humour in the moment – which boobs should I wear? Mon June 16, 2014
The speed of things Mon June 16, 2014
Impostor syndrome (no longer) Mon June 16, 2014
A typo and an update Tue June 17, 2014
The role of fate in my life Tue June 17, 2014
A tough day Tue June 17, 2014
And so it begins Wed June 18, 2014
The challenge of time and holding a thought Wed June 18, 2014
Double-mastectomy and chemo Thu June 19, 2014
Long day at Stanford Fri June 20, 2014
My quantified and qualified self Fri June 20, 2014
Caution – this one talks a bit about death … Sat June 21, 2014
“Wow! I hope you get it out of you soon!” Sat June 21, 2014
Sailing and support groups Sun June 22, 2014
‘Why me?’ versus ‘it is what it is’ Mon June 23, 2014
Why I take selfie’s Mon June 23, 2014
Knowing what to expect Tue June 24, 2014
Should I blog? Tue June 24, 2014
Slash, Burn, Poison, and Starve Wed June 25, 2014
The calm and then the storm Wed June 25, 2014
Significance of dates and getting ready for chemo Thu June 26, 2014
Preparations Thu June 26, 2014
The Power Port or Dignity Port Fri June 27, 2014
The Cactus Garden Sat June 28, 2014
TV Breast Cancer Sun June 29, 2014
They say … Sun June 29, 2014
T-shirts Sun June 29, 2014
Scrapbooking Mon June 30, 2014
Nature has more beauty Tue July 1, 2014
A pre-treatment trip Thu July 3, 2014
Breast surgery Thu July 3, 2014
I’m an educator (and my public service announcement) Sat July 5, 2014
I’m ready Sun July 6, 2014
Joining the cancer blogosphere Sun July 6, 2014
First day of chemo Mon July 7, 2014
The pains with the American system Mon July 7, 2014
Negotiating identities in multiple worlds Tue July 8, 2014
Day 1 – I had to give myself permission to nap Wed July 9, 2014
Chemo day in pictures … Wed July 9, 2014
The pill app and post chemo day 2 Thu July 10, 2014
Post Chemo day 3 Thu July 10, 2014
The Colour Pink and a memorial celebration Sat July 12, 2014
More extreme reactions Sat July 12, 2014
Not without incident Sun July 13, 2014
So a little more detail … Sun July 13, 2014
Guilt Mon July 14, 2014
Meltdown Mon July 14, 2014
Pondering the PhD Tue July 15, 2014
Doing Better Tue July 15, 2014
This too shall pass Wed July 16, 2014
In for an emotional day (maybe) Thu July 17, 2014
Who would have thought … I look sexy in a buzz cut! Fri July 18, 2014
Overcoming Inertia Sat July 19, 2014
Things I love about a shaved head … Sat July 19, 2014
A new visualization Sun July 20, 2014
Mouth sores & First cycle symptoms Sun July 20, 2014
Breast cancer pet peeve – it is not a “lump” (public service announcement) Sun July 20, 2014
Variable days Tue July 22, 2014
Changing cues Tue July 22, 2014
Preparing for neuropathy Wed July 23, 2014
2nd Round of Chemo Thu July 24, 2014
A busy day with a trip to the DMV Fri July 25, 2014
Seriousness is sinking in Fri July 25, 2014
Breast cancer, chemotherapy, and sexuality Fri July 25, 2014
Day 3 is just plain hard Sat July 26, 2014
Recommended reading Sun July 27, 2014
Early morning walks Sun July 27, 2014
Cumulative effects Sun July 27, 2014
What does it mean to be a survivor? … I am a warrior! Sun July 27, 2014
Bilateral Mastectomies Mon July 28, 2014
Every day a new side effect Tue July 29, 2014
Moving forward Wed July 30, 2014
The transformative power of a bike ride Thu July 31, 2014
My improved body image Fri August 1, 2014
My ‘cancerversary’ Fri August 1, 2014
Revising my stretch goals Sat August 2, 2014
Bone-pain – a mixed blessing Sat August 2, 2014
Reflections on body image Sun August 3, 2014
Picturing a walk Sun August 3, 2014
Picturing a morning sail Mon August 4, 2014
My bald head Mon August 4, 2014
Is it tired or it is fatigue? Mon August 4, 2014
Cycle three Wed August 6, 2014
Transitions matter Wed August 6, 2014
So I did it, but I need your help Fri August 8, 2014
So I bit the head off of the repair guy Fri August 8, 2014
On my way back Sat August 9, 2014
A perfect morning Sun August 10, 2014
My Buddha Belly Sun August 10, 2014
An awesome package – What you’ve done with your hair Mon August 11, 2014
The more you know the less you want to know Wed August 13, 2014
Wondering why? Wed August 13, 2014
The mixed blessings of support groups Thu August 14, 2014
#thisiswhatdepressionlookslike Fri August 15, 2014
Feeling strong Sat August 16, 2014
Courting a new lover Sat August 16, 2014
AC Cycle 4 Tue August 19, 2014
Persistence, Tenacity, and New Blood Wed August 20, 2014
Rethinking reconstruction Fri August 22, 2014
Nothing quite feels like you expect it Sat August 23, 2014
Reaching out Mon August 25, 2014
Queen of wishful thinking Mon August 25, 2014
The regret test Tue August 26, 2014
A challenge for my Canadian friends (limited time offer) Wed August 27, 2014
Feeling my nadir today Wed August 27, 2014
Not talking = not blogging Sat August 30, 2014
Fear of the unknown Mon September 1, 2014
And so Paclitaxol (Taxol) has begun as have the hot flashes Tue September 2, 2014
Reflections on the last few days … Tue September 2, 2014
Things to be thankful for Wed September 3, 2014
Short lived energy Thu September 4, 2014
Fatigue and my muse Mon September 8, 2014
Another day, another infusion Mon September 8, 2014
Food Angst … never surrender Tue September 9, 2014
Wanting to be part of something bigger #medx Tue September 9, 2014
How I’m doing and a bike adventure Wed September 10, 2014
The conversation project – and some end-of-life thoughts #medx Wed September 10, 2014
Today’s side-effect – cognitive numbness Wed September 10, 2014
Before all the pinkwashing was Terry Fox Sun September 14, 2014
Breast cancer prevention Sun September 14, 2014
When I don’t blog … and an update Sun September 14, 2014
One more chemo day done! Mon September 15, 2014
Another reflection on chemo brain Mon September 15, 2014
Bear with me – I’m busy – and cognitively challenged Tue September 16, 2014
Sunscreen Wed September 17, 2014
I’m scared Wed September 17, 2014
Thanks for the hugs Thu September 18, 2014
Feeling guilty after the make-up workshop Fri September 19, 2014
Sometimes feeling better is cosmetic but you don’t see it Fri September 19, 2014
I wasn’t sure … Sat September 20, 2014
Breast reconstruction (academic analysis) Mon September 22, 2014
Grumpiness … Mon September 22, 2014
Pathological Complete Response and Comments on Reconstruction Tue September 23, 2014
Some recent purchases … Wed September 24, 2014
Reconstruction update Fri September 26, 2014
How do I be an ‘engaged patient’ in a hospital gown? #medx Sat September 27, 2014
Memories of past pain … Sun September 28, 2014
Weekend hiking at Yosemite Sun September 28, 2014
Flexibility … and some good news … Mon September 29, 2014
Not your stereotypical surgeons Tue September 30, 2014
Fear and feeling better Wed October 1, 2014
Permission … Sun October 5, 2014
The generosity of strangers … Sun October 5, 2014
One more chemo day … Mon October 6, 2014
Oh where has my mind gone? Wed October 8, 2014
My first Pink’tober Fri October 10, 2014
Peak Hike Sun October 12, 2014
Mentally preparing Sun October 12, 2014
Groundhog Day Mon October 13, 2014
Breast cancer awareness isn’t about pink ribbons Tue October 14, 2014
The evolution of early detection Wed October 15, 2014
Temper tantrums Wed October 15, 2014
A turning point Fri October 17, 2014
Chemo and an update Fri October 17, 2014
Reclaiming pink … Sat October 18, 2014
Oh how easily I forget Sun October 19, 2014
Learned Helplessness and Patient Engagement #medx Mon October 20, 2014
Alcohol and Breast Cancer Mon October 20, 2014
Huh, what day is it? Wed October 22, 2014
Chemo Tourist Thu October 23, 2014
Reminded why I love my infra-red sauna Fri October 24, 2014
What’s this? Sat October 25, 2014
Pink is complicated Mon October 27, 2014
Learning to behave like an American … Wed October 29, 2014
Social media and patient engagement – #medx Wed October 29, 2014
‘For now, the chemo is done … Fri October 31, 2014
Facebook Page Fri October 31, 2014
BCC Connections Annual Conference Sun November 2, 2014
My first clinical trial Mon November 3, 2014
Familiar fatigue Tue November 4, 2014
My hair fixation Wed November 5, 2014
What do you do? Fri November 7, 2014
Dying with dignity Sat November 8, 2014
Chemo recall 🙁 Sun November 9, 2014
Smoothies, turtles, and going topless Fri November 14, 2014
Just a quick post Mon November 17, 2014
A photo shoot and getting ready for surgery Tue November 18, 2014
An update from the hospital Thu November 20, 2014
In need of an emergency plan Sat November 22, 2014
Ya, no … Sun November 23, 2014
A surgeon who understands … Mon November 24, 2014
Flyin’ Wed November 26, 2014
A nice cold walk … Fri November 28, 2014
Hoping I have rabbit cancer … Sat November 29, 2014
Doing what I can to improve the experience for others Mon December 1, 2014
What’s stopping me? Mon December 1, 2014
Swollen ankles and crazy nails Wed December 3, 2014
Calling all Cancer Bloggers … #bcsm #bccww Wed December 3, 2014
Finger tip feelings … Thu December 4, 2014
Yesterday’s appointments … just a list of future posts Fri December 5, 2014
No chocolate or coffee for a month?? Fri December 5, 2014
Each year on December 6 … Sat December 6, 2014
Pathology – What it says Sat December 6, 2014
Pathology – What it means … Sun December 7, 2014
An excuse won’t make you feel better Sun December 7, 2014
Walkin’ along the river … Sun December 7, 2014
Swelling goes down, so Becky goes for a bike ride … Wed December 10, 2014
My toes … uh … toe nails that is … Fri December 12, 2014
New energy means renewed ability to get stressed … Fri December 12, 2014
Denial can be a very powerful ally at times like these! Mon December 15, 2014
Getting organized at home … Tue December 23, 2014
Home sweet home Tue December 23, 2014
Surgery – Initial impressions and day 2 drama Thu December 25, 2014
Hospital days 3 and 4 and coming home … Sat December 27, 2014
The end of active treatment … Mon December 29, 2014
An engaged patient needs and engaged caregiver Wed December 31, 2014
A slide show of pictures taken at my tree … is that hair? Thu January 1, 2015
A small cup of coffee Fri January 2, 2015
Recliners Sat January 3, 2015
Ups and Downs Mon January 5, 2015
New years resolutions Wed January 7, 2015
A nice walk … but I’m tired … Sat January 10, 2015
And then there was one … Tue January 13, 2015
lightening up … Wed January 14, 2015
I look good but … and real hugs Thu January 15, 2015
Crying and TV Fri January 16, 2015
Celebrating my boob job and cancer language Sun January 18, 2015
Cancer language and the war metaphor Mon January 19, 2015
See-saw days Tue January 20, 2015
My hair attachment Wed January 21, 2015
Debridement and a rest day Thu January 22, 2015
Selfies Fri January 23, 2015
Getting back on the trike Sun January 25, 2015
Ugh – Don’t read the Internet <-- Worst advice ever Sun January 25, 2015
Everything yet nothing is cancer Mon January 26, 2015
Breasts that aren’t breasts Tue January 27, 2015
Driving and a glass of wine Wed January 28, 2015
Mental health, #bellletstalk, and pink ribbon campaigns Thu January 29, 2015
Getting back on the ‘bent Fri January 30, 2015
Wild Sun February 1, 2015
44 and groundhogs Mon February 2, 2015
Neuropathy – what’s old is new Tue February 3, 2015
When do I get to say, I had breast cancer? Tue February 3, 2015
There’s a hole in my belly … Thu February 5, 2015
It is odd not having feeling on your chest Sat February 7, 2015
Chemotherapy Induced Peripheral Neuropathy Sun February 8, 2015
The new normal and flashbacks Sun February 8, 2015
Getting ‘dressed’ Mon February 9, 2015
Updating my calendar Tue February 10, 2015
Getting back on the bike Tue February 10, 2015
Should I blog? and why I blog Wed February 11, 2015
Advanced wound care Fri February 13, 2015
Catching up with some pictures Sun February 15, 2015
Struggling to focus Sun February 15, 2015
Guilt Mon February 16, 2015
When I worry, I plan, and then I worry some more Thu February 19, 2015
Sigh and some tears of relief Thu February 19, 2015
Great first ride on the road bike, except for the falling part! Fri February 20, 2015
It’s just a stitch Sun February 22, 2015
Reflecting on winter and self examinations Mon February 23, 2015
To tattoo or not to tattoo … Tue February 24, 2015
Yesterday was a turning point Wed February 25, 2015
From survivor to thriver – I’m not there yet Thu February 26, 2015
So today I graduated Thu February 26, 2015
Friday is mental health day Fri February 27, 2015
Wound healing Sun March 1, 2015
Hill climbing Sun March 1, 2015
Let’s talk about sexuality Mon March 2, 2015
Casting for Recovery Mon March 2, 2015
Today – my first 20km bike ride! Thu March 5, 2015
Alternative medicine versus complementary medicine Fri March 6, 2015
Accepting what is Sat March 7, 2015
My love-hate relationship with my hair Sat March 7, 2015
Oh I wish I could sleep Tue March 10, 2015
It gets harder before it gets easier Wed March 11, 2015
An epic ride Sat March 14, 2015
Tenacity and over doing it … Sun March 15, 2015
Plastic surgery and post breast cancer vanity / guilt Mon March 16, 2015
Patient care fail – when allergies hit Tue March 17, 2015
It’s all in a name – Patient Safety #medx Wed March 18, 2015
Tuesday’s Surgery Wed March 18, 2015
Shopping for some shapewear Sun March 22, 2015
Support groups and medical tests Mon March 23, 2015
Avon Walk and Fundraising Tue March 24, 2015
Loss of optimism Wed March 25, 2015
Bought my tickets for the #RecklessTour but still nervous about it Wed March 25, 2015
Learned something about my new breasts today … Thu March 26, 2015
Feeling a little embarrassed … definitely relieved Mon March 30, 2015
The Emperor of All Maladies and clinical trials – #cancerfilm Tue March 31, 2015
The Emperor of All Maladies – Episode 2 – hitting close to home #cancerfilm Wed April 1, 2015
Blog Impact Survey Thu April 2, 2015
Recent moods Fri April 3, 2015
I have a cold Sun April 5, 2015
My cold still lingers on Wed April 8, 2015
Coping with abundance Thu April 9, 2015
Fatigue and my knees Thu April 9, 2015
Casting for Recovery Mon April 13, 2015
This little light of mine Tue April 14, 2015
Getting stronger every day Thu April 16, 2015
Some pictures and getting back in the pool Sun April 19, 2015
Sailing… Sun April 19, 2015
Tired, excited, having fun, exhausted Wed April 22, 2015
Karaoke Sat April 25, 2015
Blog Impact Survey – a Reminder Sun April 26, 2015
Thank you and body image reflections Mon April 27, 2015
Mini-Med School Tue April 28, 2015
Swimming & Flashbacks Wed April 29, 2015
Being in the present Sun May 3, 2015
Routine breast cancer screening … Tue May 5, 2015
When I swim now … Wed May 6, 2015
Empathy Cards Fri May 8, 2015
Doing well – mentally Sat May 9, 2015
Changing the conference experience Sat May 9, 2015
Auspicious dates and my diagnosis story Sun May 10, 2015
Today I miss my nipples Mon May 11, 2015
A picture is worth 1000 words Tue May 12, 2015
Where do I go from here? Sat May 16, 2015
Cues and context Wed May 20, 2015
Seeking routine Thu May 21, 2015
… and that’s OK Fri May 22, 2015
The need for me to be well Sat May 23, 2015
Active recovery and numbness Mon May 25, 2015
Bryan Adams and a Sleep Clinic Tue May 26, 2015
Hypochondriac or engaged patient? Can you tell the difference? Wed May 27, 2015
Comparisons Sat May 30, 2015
I had planned to write Tue June 2, 2015
Tenacity – or Lack There Of? Sat June 6, 2015
Who am I? Mon June 8, 2015
A year ago today … Tue June 9, 2015
Numbness and pain … Sun June 14, 2015
Permission to be selfish, saying no, and looking to the future Tue June 16, 2015
Struggling to exercise Thu June 18, 2015
Introductions (or not) Mon June 22, 2015
Trying to get unstuck Thu June 25, 2015
Mirror Mirror on the wall Mon June 29, 2015
Perspectives Tue June 30, 2015
Healing takes time Wed July 1, 2015
Transitions, #avon39, and the Peak Hike. Thu July 2, 2015
It’s not cancer Fri July 3, 2015
Epic hikes and sleeping in a tent Sun July 5, 2015
Acure – a product review Sun July 5, 2015
Rashes and ouches Mon July 6, 2015
Changes Tue July 7, 2015
Sometimes you need to say the good words too … Thu July 9, 2015
Power of 39 #powerof39 #avon39SF Tue July 14, 2015
15 Random things about me Wed July 15, 2015
My Panacea Wed July 15, 2015
Moving beyond a 3-month horizon Fri July 17, 2015
I am cancer free Mon July 20, 2015
There is harm in giving false numbers Sat July 25, 2015
Ground control to Major Tom … Fri July 31, 2015
This is my fight song … Sat August 1, 2015
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger … Tue August 4, 2015
Message to my doctors: Do not tell me to lose weight Wed August 5, 2015
Fundraising time – Peak Hike for Prevention Sun August 9, 2015
What’s a non-cancer reason for this? Thu August 13, 2015
Virtually Connecting at ePatient blogging conference @vconnecting Mon August 17, 2015
Belly dancing and next steps with exercise Thu August 20, 2015
Travel stress Fri August 21, 2015
Like a phoenix – on re-emergence and identity Mon August 24, 2015
Quality of life issues Tue August 25, 2015
If it isn’t one thing, it’s another … Sat August 29, 2015
The double-edge sword of gluten free Sun August 30, 2015
QUB ePatient Conference and Virtually Connecting Mon August 31, 2015
This makes me angry #celiac diagnosis Mon August 31, 2015
Celebrating successes Tue September 1, 2015
Food complexities Sat September 5, 2015
This makes me sad Wed September 9, 2015
Changing my default setting Sun September 13, 2015
What not to say to a cancer survivor … Mon September 14, 2015
ePatients and Advocacy Mon September 14, 2015
Shivering in a Paper Gown … Tue September 15, 2015
A journalist asked me … Tue September 15, 2015
Virtually Connecting at QUB ePatient Conference (#qubept) Thu September 17, 2015
Survivor guilt or … Mon September 21, 2015
Celiac, gluten sensitivity, and wheat allergy Mon September 21, 2015
Exhausted … and still learning to navigate conferences … Thu September 24, 2015
“we are all patients” … NOT #medx Sat September 26, 2015
Wheat is poison and other mind games #celiac #gflife Mon September 28, 2015
You probably have #celiac but whatever … Tue September 29, 2015
Giving blood … one small vial at a time Fri October 2, 2015
If this then that Sat October 3, 2015
Deepening connections Sun October 4, 2015
Patients 2.0 at #health2con Mon October 5, 2015
Lymphedema Thu October 8, 2015
Decide who you trust Mon October 12, 2015
October – it’s just another month Thu October 22, 2015
When can I stop poisoning myself? #celiac Fri October 23, 2015
Lifetime risks of breast cancer Sat October 24, 2015
Perplexed about not recommending clinical breast exams Tue October 27, 2015
A year later … Fri October 30, 2015
November is writing month Sun November 1, 2015
Not in the high risk category, but still … Mon November 2, 2015
This is epic! Tue November 3, 2015
Gluten free medications Wed November 4, 2015
Authentic celebrity experience Thu November 5, 2015
Hidden sources of gluten Fri November 6, 2015
When the nightmare never ends Sat November 7, 2015
Would a female doctor have written the same prescription? Sun November 8, 2015
Training for Epic Experience … Mon November 9, 2015
DNR … Tue November 10, 2015
“Brain Fog” Wed November 11, 2015
Celiac … it’s a real thing Thu November 12, 2015
My Bucket List Fri November 13, 2015
Researching my illnesses Sat November 14, 2015
In-Training Sun November 15, 2015
Learned helplessness Mon November 16, 2015
Thank you University of Chicago Medicine (@CureCeliac) Tue November 17, 2015
At this time last year … Wed November 18, 2015
I’m doing OK Thu November 19, 2015
Heard a statistic the other night … Fri November 20, 2015
Which doctor is in charge? Sat November 21, 2015
Does someone in your family have celiac? Sun November 22, 2015
So you have this thing … lymphedema woes Mon November 23, 2015
A little gluten won’t hurt will it? Wed November 25, 2015
The Celiac Project – and antibodies Thu November 26, 2015
Lymphedema – attempting to separate fact from fiction Fri November 27, 2015
Cleaning out Mom’s kitchen (gluten-free in Canada) Sat November 28, 2015
Today I wanted to share these posts about food from a dying cancer patient Sun November 29, 2015
The other 70 ish percent Mon November 30, 2015
And with that, #nablopomo ends … Mon November 30, 2015
Today I pause and reflect Sun December 6, 2015
Feeling strong but cramping… Thu December 10, 2015
Memories Fri December 11, 2015
How to feed a loved one … #celiac Fri December 11, 2015
A little bummed out … Wed December 16, 2015
A year ago today … Thu December 17, 2015
A visit to the pain doctor Sat December 19, 2015
Treatment update Wed December 23, 2015
If you like what you are reading … Sat December 26, 2015
An unexpected trip to Vegas #celiac Sat December 26, 2015
Balance and counter-balance Sun December 27, 2015
On being selfish Wed December 30, 2015
For 2016 I seek balance Thu December 31, 2015
Reflections and looking ever forward Sat January 2, 2016
This year I will be strong Sun January 3, 2016
Today I surprised myself Tue January 5, 2016
Last week I got to be Wonder Woman Sun January 10, 2016
Next steps in hormone therapy Wed January 13, 2016
It doesn’t feel like a tragedy Thu January 14, 2016
The bait and switch (ugg) Fri January 15, 2016
My biography Tue January 19, 2016
A little too enthusiastic Wed January 20, 2016
My meds are making me sick … #celiac Sat January 23, 2016
What Maslow & Bloom can teach us about cancer survivorship Tue January 26, 2016
Thank you everyone … Sun January 31, 2016
Life doesn’t suck Fri February 5, 2016
A new perspective on sleep Sat February 6, 2016
On healthy privilege and prevention Sun February 7, 2016
Putting one foot in front of the other Thu February 11, 2016
Hormone therapy update Fri February 12, 2016
Flashbacks Sat February 13, 2016
Cancer as a gift Thu February 25, 2016
Poetry and life energy Sat February 27, 2016
I forgive my body Sun February 28, 2016
I now see awe Wed March 2, 2016
In a bit of a funk Fri March 11, 2016
A drug to make travel less stressful #celiac Thu March 17, 2016
No problem – minor meltdown Mon March 21, 2016
Balance is a verb Mon April 4, 2016
Imbalanced … Mon April 18, 2016
Fear and UTIs Sun April 24, 2016
I didn’t get sick … life with #celiac disease Thu April 28, 2016
Finding a parking space Mon May 2, 2016
My first solo road trip #celiac conference #cdfexpo Sat May 7, 2016
Place memories Wed May 18, 2016
A different type of elimination diet – #celiac and eating out Fri May 20, 2016
Live life on your own terms Wed May 25, 2016
My weekly tri Fri May 27, 2016
Do I avoid the sadness? #celiac Sun May 29, 2016
Citing vs anonymizing blogs in research Mon June 6, 2016
It’s that time of year again #cancerversaries Sun June 12, 2016
Usage guidelines for researchers who use blogs Mon June 13, 2016
The costs of treatment Fri June 17, 2016
Virtually Connecting + ePatients #vcept Mon June 20, 2016
Things I do not say Thu June 23, 2016
When you use my data, please say thank-you Sun June 26, 2016
Time passes by and we move forward Fri July 8, 2016
Treatment fatigue Thu July 14, 2016
Fatigue and travel Sat July 16, 2016
Talking about blogging with bloggers #vcept Tue July 19, 2016
Coming up for air Thu July 21, 2016
Blogs as a ‘service’ not a ‘treatment’ Fri July 22, 2016
I hate it when a blogger dies … and a reminder to live … Sun July 24, 2016
My morning time out Thu July 28, 2016
Pokemon Go – My urban exercise buddy Mon August 1, 2016
Ack my boobs are deflating Thu August 4, 2016
Quality of life #patientchat Sat August 6, 2016
What if patients made the recommendations? Sun August 7, 2016
More things they don’t tell you Wed August 10, 2016
Tears of fear Thu August 11, 2016
You are being selfish Mon August 15, 2016
An embargo on doctors appointments Tue August 16, 2016
Allan R Hogue – July 7, 1949-Aug 21, 2016 Mon August 22, 2016
Book launch: Agony and Absurdity: Adventures in Cancerland: An Anthology Tue September 13, 2016
Incidental findings Tue September 20, 2016
A stick in the foot Wed September 28, 2016
Confirmation of incidental findings and foot surgery Thu September 29, 2016
#breastcancerrealitycheck – support a cure not awareness Sat October 1, 2016
I wish someone told me … Tue October 4, 2016
Trivializing rather than educating … #breastcancerrealitycheck Fri October 7, 2016
Mammograms and overdiagnosis – a hard truth to hear #breastcancerrealitycheck Sun October 16, 2016
The changing sense of pink’tober Thu October 20, 2016
The difference a year makes Fri October 21, 2016
Experiencing the sad happiness Sat October 22, 2016
Celiac dreams #celiac Sun October 23, 2016
Cancer blogging: A survivor’s story Sun October 30, 2016
Does participation in the breast cancer blogosphere increase anxiety? Fri November 11, 2016
Memories of clear nodes Sat November 19, 2016
Health (illness) bloggers Mon November 28, 2016
Survivorship plans Tue November 29, 2016
New hair day Fri December 2, 2016
Patient Health Literacy Tue December 13, 2016
December 17 – Just another day Sat December 17, 2016
Neuropathy update Sun December 18, 2016
Yesterday I climbed a mountain Thu December 29, 2016
2016 – A Year in Selfies Mon January 2, 2017
Emotional memory Wed January 11, 2017
Fear – the neighbour that just won’t go away Sun January 15, 2017
I almost didn’t go … Tue January 17, 2017
More time together Tue January 24, 2017
Identity Thu February 2, 2017
Driving, chemobrain, and respectfully acknowledging side effects Mon February 6, 2017
Lupron woes Wed February 8, 2017
Yosemite and snarky comments on Facebook Thu February 9, 2017
Overwhelmed with a huge sense of denial Fri February 10, 2017
Living Pathography – An Open Dissertation blog Thu February 16, 2017
End of Life Options Act Fri February 17, 2017
Feelings of health Sun February 26, 2017
Letting go of at least some of the fear Tue February 28, 2017
Selfishness to reduce stress Wed March 1, 2017
The Cost of Appearances Fri March 3, 2017
Making valuable choices Sun March 26, 2017
Back pain (not cancer) and the need to self-advocate Fri March 31, 2017
Circle of 6 Thu April 6, 2017
Today I put my wedding ring on Tue April 11, 2017
My paradoxical future Thu April 13, 2017
Watch out for my wrath … I’m anti-hormonal Mon April 24, 2017
Remission society and mourning my fantasy future Tue April 25, 2017
How cancer has changed my approach to the medical system Fri April 28, 2017
It’s amazing the difference a good night’s sleep makes Fri May 5, 2017
The freezing surf Wed May 17, 2017
Not fighting a battle – the closure to the narrative is death itself Sun May 21, 2017
National cancer survivor day #idontgetit Sun June 4, 2017
SendIt! Photos from my surf weekend – @senditbrand Wed June 7, 2017
Carlos whoever you are, you are an ass! Sun June 11, 2017
Celebration or not … Tue June 13, 2017
Looking for theme validation help Sat June 17, 2017
SF Pride Mon June 26, 2017
Infusion-fatigue Wed June 28, 2017
The complexities / interplays of trust Tue July 11, 2017
I’ve stopped sharing my crisis Wed July 12, 2017
One year gluten free #celiac #gflife Sun July 16, 2017
I’m not brave – another cancer war metaphor Sat July 22, 2017
Re-grounding Wed July 26, 2017
Study idea: Comparing pt peer SE advice with care team SE advice in MBC pts Fri July 28, 2017
Snake oil and cancer care Wed August 2, 2017
Normalization of ‘young’ Mon August 14, 2017
Nancy’s summer blog post challenge Mon August 21, 2017
Eclipses Sun September 3, 2017
Empathy and suffering #digped Mon September 4, 2017
Normalization of surgery and toes Tue September 12, 2017
Friends Wed September 20, 2017
Doctors think patients … and don’t talk down to me… Mon October 2, 2017
patient generated 5-minute medical history Fri October 6, 2017
Blogs, Bikes, and Breast Cancer Sat October 7, 2017
Don’t quantify suffering Mon October 16, 2017
Yoga MOOC Wed October 18, 2017
Are you your disease? Wed October 18, 2017
Is it critical if you don’t also question the value? Mon October 23, 2017
YogaMOOC – Yoga and body awareness after breast cancer surgery Tue October 24, 2017
Goals for YogaMOOC – and breathing after breast cancer surgery Wed October 25, 2017
Health literacy as a patients job Wed October 25, 2017
Authentic smiling as a coping mechanism Sat October 28, 2017
Happiness and hiking, it’s about the journey not the destination #yogamooc Wed November 1, 2017
Critical health literacy, statistics, and treatment decisions Thu November 2, 2017
breast cancer bootcamp Sat November 4, 2017
Mindfulness and CBT – A #yogamooc reflection Sat November 11, 2017
Recurrence and hormone therapy Wed November 22, 2017
Reflections on – When breath becomes air Mon November 27, 2017
As Dec 17 approached, I’m trying to figure out Christmas Thu December 14, 2017
Celiac disease research update #celiac Fri December 29, 2017
Just talking Wed January 10, 2018
Normalcy of Surgery – and my big toe Thu January 11, 2018
Experience, expression, and meaning making Wed January 17, 2018
Update on my foot and three years … Fri January 19, 2018
What I wish I knew sooner about prescription meds #patienthealthliteracy Mon January 22, 2018
Lost without a gym membership Sat January 27, 2018
Moving forward Fri February 2, 2018
Balancing optimism and learned helplessness Mon February 5, 2018
Transitions Fri February 9, 2018
Self-awareness as health literacy Fri February 9, 2018
Gluten Free Orange tea-cake recipe (Vitamix version) Wed February 14, 2018
Precision social media support – an #epatient example Thu March 1, 2018
Privilege and equity in healthcare Wed March 7, 2018
Dance like no one is watching Fri March 23, 2018
I didn’t think I’d be learning the Canadian Cancer system like this Thu April 12, 2018
There are better ways to say it Fri April 13, 2018
Pain management Sun April 15, 2018
Love it, hate it, love it Wed April 18, 2018
Pain control and transport chairs Fri April 20, 2018
Friday was biopsy day Sat April 21, 2018
I wanted to be more impressed Tue April 24, 2018
The psychology of names Thu April 26, 2018
Echos of experiences past Fri April 27, 2018
Smooth sailing followed by an unexpected bump in the road Sun April 29, 2018
Treatment options for mom Tue May 1, 2018
We are a rare family Thu May 3, 2018
Not what we wanted to hear, but not as scary as it sounds (maybe) Sun May 6, 2018
Relational and activity based identities Tue May 8, 2018
The #PAPMET clinical trial Fri May 11, 2018
Online support for pRCC Tue May 15, 2018
Esophagogastroduodenoscopy – now that is a mouth full! Thu May 17, 2018
Where the mind goes Wed May 23, 2018
A telehealth call Wed May 30, 2018
Mask making Fri June 1, 2018
Processing … Mon June 4, 2018
Progression Thu June 7, 2018
Weirdness … Sun June 17, 2018
Uncertainty Sun June 24, 2018
Annoyed Sun June 24, 2018
Fatigue … Tue June 26, 2018
It was so fast … Kathleen Hogue (nee Kish) passed July 1, 2018 Mon July 2, 2018
Grief is a weird thing Wed July 4, 2018
Alternate reality Sun July 15, 2018
A long overdue update Mon July 30, 2018
Cell biology video Mon August 6, 2018
Yoga and ego Tue August 28, 2018
Lost … Sat September 1, 2018
Greater themes Sun September 2, 2018
A different kind of loneliness Thu September 6, 2018
And alternative CV #unboundeq #altcv Thu September 13, 2018
Regaining confidence Sat September 15, 2018
My mantra Wed September 19, 2018
Mountain Biking and Wilder Ranch Sun September 23, 2018
I can see – mostly Thu September 27, 2018
Chai Tea? Nope, California Bay Leaf Sun September 30, 2018
We need to talk about ethics and social media: a conversation Thu October 4, 2018
Powerful, tearful, and memorable weekend at Commonweal Mon October 8, 2018
Checkups and practicing grief Fri October 12, 2018
Always an advocate and friend Sat October 27, 2018
Writing Fri November 9, 2018
An afternoon off Thu November 15, 2018
Lots of updates – missing dates – Lori’s memorial – getting back to the gym Tue November 20, 2018
An escape to Indian Wells and the desert Tue December 4, 2018
Anxiety and oncology visits Fri December 7, 2018
Danger and opportunity — oh ya, and four years of remission … Mon December 17, 2018
Christmas in the canyons Sat December 29, 2018
Goals for 2019 Wed January 2, 2019
Healing is exhausting and weird sensations Thu January 3, 2019
Survivorship badge Wed January 30, 2019
90 second GF microwave bread Mon February 4, 2019
Not blogging much – and transitions Thu February 21, 2019
A heaviness Fri March 1, 2019
Just do it … Sun March 3, 2019
I cannot help but ask… Tue March 26, 2019
My intimate relationship with my lymph system Sun March 31, 2019
Waiting for the text/call Thu April 11, 2019
Back on the bike Mon April 22, 2019
Is moving back to Canada and the improved quality of life worth living a shorter life? Fri April 26, 2019
Patient health literacy Sun May 5, 2019
Things I need to write Tue May 14, 2019
A day at Tassajara Mon May 27, 2019
Then the phone rang … Fri May 31, 2019
June is hitting me hard Fri June 7, 2019
30 … uh … 10 things that make me smile Sat June 8, 2019
I forgot … and that is a good thing Fri June 14, 2019
Back pain … what now Sun July 7, 2019
The time has come to professionalize Peer-to-peer heathcare Sun July 14, 2019
Can I handle the emotional hit associated with losing more friends? Tue July 23, 2019
It’s like riding a bike, except when the bike is a recumbent Thu October 3, 2019
I almost cried Sat October 12, 2019
laminectomy or fusion … the woes of my spine Thu November 7, 2019
Kind of like Halloween for an adult with celiac disease Sun November 17, 2019
Is this normal? Spinal laminectomy Fri November 22, 2019
Five more years … and a back update Thu November 28, 2019
Five years and counting Wed December 18, 2019
Getting flustered Tue January 14, 2020
When a TV star has stage IV Mon February 10, 2020
Are individual breast cancer narratives just pink ribbons? Fri February 28, 2020
Life during “safer at home” Fri April 24, 2020
A reflective bike ride Fri June 5, 2020
May you live in interesting times Thu July 9, 2020
So, two weeks ago we made a big decision… Sat July 11, 2020
One step at a time … not really Tue July 14, 2020
Does it feel real yet? Sat July 18, 2020
Collapsing … and nostalgia of place Thu July 23, 2020
Zoledronic Acid Sun July 26, 2020
Mixed emotions Sun August 30, 2020
When slow care reduces stress Thu October 15, 2020
Taking a deep breath Tue November 17, 2020
Six years and counting… Thu December 17, 2020
A New Years Hike Sat January 2, 2021
2020 … and some thoughts about 2021 Sun February 21, 2021
Meet Cali Thu March 4, 2021
New Beginnings Sun April 4, 2021
Privilege – and Alum Rock park memories Wed May 12, 2021
Semester is over, now what? Thu May 13, 2021
Another day, another beach Fri May 14, 2021
Vaccination day Tue May 18, 2021
Under construction, hug me, spoil me Wed June 2, 2021
It’s that time of year Mon June 7, 2021
Fireworks as recognition of loss Fri July 2, 2021
Where is my time going? Sat July 17, 2021
I forgive my body – a repost Wed October 13, 2021
How to feed a love one with Celiac (repost) Tue December 7, 2021
Seven years and counting Fri December 17, 2021
I’m happy Sat February 26, 2022
A summer challenge Wed April 27, 2022
1 of 75 – Beach Meadows Sun May 1, 2022
2 of 75 – River Ridge Common Mon May 2, 2022
3 of 75 – Woodland Gardens Tue May 3, 2022
4 of 75 – Crescent Beach – and some boxing Thu May 5, 2022
5 of 75 – Rissers Beach Fri May 6, 2022
6 of 75 – Adventure Trail Sun May 8, 2022
7 of 75 – Indian Path Common Mon May 9, 2022
8 of 75 – Random ATV trails in Conquerall Wed May 11, 2022
9 of 75 – Cherry Hill Beach Thu May 12, 2022
10 of 75 – Beach Meadows Fri May 13, 2022
11-14 Various walks Mon May 23, 2022
15-17 Nice day for a hike Sat May 28, 2022
18 of 75 – A barefoot beach walk Sun May 29, 2022
19 of 75 – A little library Mon May 30, 2022
20 – 23 of 75 – Beaches and Developments Mon June 6, 2022
24 of 75 – Green Bay Tue June 7, 2022
25 – 27: Cherry Hill and the Cemetery Tue June 14, 2022
28 – 31 of 75: Five Islands Provincial Park Sat June 25, 2022
32 – 40 of 75: Cherry Hill & Blomidon Fri July 15, 2022
41 – 50 of 75: New beaches and more Tue August 16, 2022
51 – 53 of 75: Getting lost and Thomas Raddall Provincial Park Sun August 28, 2022
Who’s value is it anyways? Fri October 28, 2022
Never knew I wanted to be a breast cancer survivor Sun November 13, 2022
Patient Health Literacy Themes and BC Becky Book Thu December 1, 2022
Developing Coping Mechanisms Tue January 3, 2023
Learning about the disease Mon January 23, 2023
Navigating the healthcare system Sun January 29, 2023
There are scares .. and then there are SCARES Tue July 11, 2023
Surprisingly calm Tue July 25, 2023
Local recurrence for now … Thu July 27, 2023
Sunday, I took a mental health day Tue August 1, 2023
A deep breath Thu August 10, 2023
Anxiety kicking in and a weekend folk festival Tue August 15, 2023
I have a date Mon August 21, 2023
Surgery update Thu August 24, 2023
Healing Notes Wed August 30, 2023
Denial is a powerful tool Mon September 4, 2023
Healing takes time Sat September 9, 2023
Lab results Thu September 14, 2023
Today I went for a hike Mon September 18, 2023
The in-between space Wed September 20, 2023
Self-care and setbacks Sun October 1, 2023
Quality of my remaining life Fri October 6, 2023
A surprise diagnosis Sat October 14, 2023
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday – busy times Sun October 15, 2023
Ported Thu October 19, 2023
Dates Sat October 21, 2023
I miss my mom – and my first treatment Wed October 25, 2023
So far so good Fri October 27, 2023
Don’t remember it being this bad Sun October 29, 2023
I want to be a sign of hope not despair Mon October 30, 2023
A little bit of hair fun Fri November 3, 2023
Trying to figure out my thinking Wed November 8, 2023
Making head coverings Sat November 11, 2023
It’s a no more hair kinda day Mon November 13, 2023
Day 1 & 2 Side effects Thu November 16, 2023
Day 3 and 4 Sat November 18, 2023
Days 5, 6, and 7 Tue November 21, 2023
Days 8, 9, 10 Fri November 24, 2023
Days 11, 12 – Nadir Sun November 26, 2023
Days 13, 14, 15 Wed November 29, 2023
Day 16 Thu November 30, 2023
Ouch my tooth Thu December 14, 2023
Anxiety Thu December 21, 2023
An Update and Some Chemo Brain Stories Fri December 29, 2023
Going out with a whimper Sun December 31, 2023
Radiation therapy Tue January 2, 2024
Lymphedema Thu January 4, 2024
Scanxiety Sat January 6, 2024
Radiation Therapy Sun January 7, 2024
That dreaded 50% Tue January 9, 2024
Some better news Wed January 17, 2024
All marked up Sun January 21, 2024
Going maskless Sat January 27, 2024
Radiation, Recall, and Lymphedema Wed January 31, 2024
Radiation and Losing Friends Sat February 3, 2024
Radiation is a mental struggle Tue February 6, 2024
Intentional Living Wed February 14, 2024
Clearing the brain Thu February 15, 2024
And then there was one Thu February 22, 2024
From Fatigue to Fear: The Unseen Battles of Post-Treatment Life Mon February 26, 2024
Physically, I’m doing well – Mentally, not so much Tue March 12, 2024
Then and now Wed March 20, 2024
Not growing old Wed April 3, 2024
Halfway Thu April 11, 2024
Can I call myself a writer … Fri April 12, 2024
Accomplishment versus joy Mon April 15, 2024
Forgiving my body again Wed April 17, 2024
California 2024 – Hiking Sun April 21, 2024
10 km later Tue April 23, 2024
Rediscovering joy Wed May 1, 2024
Sunshine and Sunflowers Thu May 9, 2024
Navigating the Side Effects of Trastuzumab: Finding Balance and Embracing Summer Wed May 29, 2024
A long overdue post Sun July 28, 2024
First day of class – A time of transition Tue September 3, 2024
My first haircut Wed September 11, 2024

In the beginning

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