Chemo recall :-(
I’m not sure there is actually such a thing as chemo recall. There such a thing as radiation recall – where something prompts your body to remember radiation burns and your skin turns red where it has been irradiated.
I had hoped that with each day past my regular infusion day, my side effects would start to get better. Unfortunately, some of them are actually getting worse. It is as if my body remembers that on this day you get a new dose of chemo, so the cumulative effects should continue to get worse. Now, in addition to stopping the chemo, I’m also not taking any steroids (one of the chemo pre-meds). So, I’m not getting the thing that boosted me up each week.
Today I’m feeling nerve pain, which is causing my muscles (mostly in my calves and forearms) to go tense, my feet are totally numb, and my joints are weak. It is rather frustrating, as I want to be feeling better, feeling stronger, feeling ready for an activity filled vacation in Hawaii. I continue to remind myself that recovery will take time, one day at a time…