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Days 5, 6, and 7
Day 5 is pretty much the most miserable day of the cycle, with day 4 being a close second. I did get out to walk a couple of times, but mostly, I felt hungover all the time. Facebook also reminded me that on November 19, 2014 I had my first cancer surgery. It reminded me…
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Day 3 and 4
Thankfully, I’ve been sleeping well, which definitely helps how I feel. Day three was a busy day, as I wanted to to a Halifax run to return a few things and pick up a few things. It actually turned into a Dartmouth run once I realized that we could do Ikea, Home Depot, and Costco…
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Day 1 & 2 Side effects
I wanted to capture with a little more detail the side effects that I’m feeling, so that next cycle I will have something better to compare with. I remember having a really hard time for a few days, but not really sure when that was – and I might have had a cold on top…
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It’s a no more hair kinda day
I woke up Sunday morning at 5am to the feeling of hair in my face. If you recall, I had my hair cut really short, so there was no way that it could be in my face and still attached to my head. To me that was the signal that it was time to shave…
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Making head coverings
When Covid hit, I learned to sew face masks. I used a variety of patterns and watched many videos on YouTube. I decided that since I can now sew, I would try making myself some chemo head coverings. On the hair note, my hair is thinning but still very present. I don’t feel like it…
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Trying to figure out my thinking
I’m still trying to figure out how I feel. What does it mean to be going through this again? What does it mean about the rest of my life? About survival? I feel like I should be feeling something, but I’m not. I feel like I should be processing this information in one way or…
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A little bit of hair fun
When I told my friend that I’d be losing my hair again, she said I should do something fun with it before it fell out. I thought that was a great idea, so I asked a neighbour who always has fun hair. She asked another neighbour to help – and the two of them transformed…
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I want to be a sign of hope not despair
I want my journey and this blog to describe what is real – what it is really like to go through this experience. I also want it to provide a level of hope for someone who is going this this experience. I could say that before this recurrence, my blog was about hope – or…
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Don’t remember it being this bad
I remember blogging about how day 3 was “just plain hard”, but I don’t remember feeling nearly has bad as I have felt over the last two nights. I was mostly fine on Friday during the day. I got my Lapelga shot (white blood cell booster) at about 2pm. I used the VON, so a…
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So far so good
With this chemo regime I take steriod pills and anti nausea pills for three days – the day before chemo, chemo day, and the following day. This means that for days 1 and 2 I’m pretty hyper. My neighbours and friends notices that I talk faster and move faster – but by mid afternoon of…
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I miss my mom – and my first treatment
I didn’t really expect that sensation to hit. Last night I realized that one of the things that I was missing this time around is my mom. When I was first diagnosed the recurrence, I was glad to not have to tell her. That was one of the hardest things I had to do. But…
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Dates
The first time around, I found that I knew every date – the date of my diagnosis (June 12), first chemo (July 7), last chemo (Oct 30), first surgery (Nov 19), second surgery (Dec 17), third surgery (Mar 17) … this time, I have not been paying attention to dates. They don’t matter to me.…
