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I forgot … and that is a good thing

Fri June 14, 2019

On Wednesday, as I was signing a bunch of papers, I wrote the date down at least 6 times. June 12, 2019. It wasn't until support group last night…

30 … uh … 10 things that make me smile

Sat June 8, 2019

Emotional Journey

I have been struggling with writer's block lately. I know I need to get back into a regular writing practice. I'm making progress with my dissertation, but it too…

June is hitting me hard

Fri June 7, 2019

Emotional Journey

June is a particularly pensive month for me. This year June is hitting me harder than it has hit me in previous years. June 12, 2014 was when I…

Then the phone rang …

Fri May 31, 2019

Emotional Journey

The phone rang and woke me up. It was the call I had been waiting for, but also dreading. When I talked to my oncologist the week before vacation,…

A day at Tassajara

Mon May 27, 2019

Emotional Journey

For our last full day of vacation, we decided we wanted to spoil ourselves. I really wanted to spend a day at a spa or something. We were driving…

Waiting for the text/call

Thu April 11, 2019

Emotional Journey

I'm in a time of remembering and a time of waiting. Waiting for the text or call that will tell me that another of my friends has passed from…

My intimate relationship with my lymph system

Sun March 31, 2019

Emotional Journey

I didn't know what a swollen lymph node felt like. When I went through treatment, I didn't have any known lymph involvement. I hadn't really even heard of the…

Danger and opportunity — oh ya, and four years of remission …

Mon December 17, 2018

Emotional Journey

“More than a decade after writing At the Will of the Body, I still think of illness as a balance of danger and opportunity. The danger is that one…

Anxiety and oncology visits

Fri December 7, 2018

Emotional Journey

Many cancer patients and survivors experience what we affectionately call scanxiety - that is anxiety around taking scans. I realized while swimming this afternoon that I experience anxiety around…

An escape to Indian Wells and the desert

Tue December 4, 2018

Emotional Journey

When I found out that a friend from Ottawa was going to be in Indian Wells (near Palm Springs) for a conference, I seriously considered going to visit her.…