BC Becky

Never thought I'd want to be a breast cancer survivor

Category: Seven years and counting

  • Patient Health Literacy Themes and BC Becky Book

    Patient Health Literacy Themes and BC Becky Book

    I had originally planned on waiting until December 17 to release my book – that would be the 8th anniversary of the surgery to remove the last of the known cancer from my body. However, when I had the paperback ready, Amazon did not let me publish it on a future date. That meant that the paperback version was ready but the eBook was being held back. And so, I have now released the eBook, Kindle unlimited, and Paperback versions of “Never Knew I Wanted to be a Breast Cancer Survivor”. I’ve ordered some author copies for myself, but they have not arrived yet – however, I have heard from friends that their copies have arrived.

    I hope you enjoy the book.

    When I was working on it, I was working on a PhD. That involved analyzing the blog posts for key themes. The themes helped me choose which of the blog posts made their way into the book. The themes I identified are:

    • Developing coping mechanisms
    • Navigating the healthcare system
    • Learning about the disease
    • Understanding side effects
    • Advocating
    • Exploring body image
    • Making decisions
    • Negotiating identity

    I came to the conclusion that these themes aligned with patient health literacies that I developed throughout my treatment experience.

    Patient Health Literacies – (c) 2020 Rebecca J. Hogue

    If you are reading the book, can you see these themes? Do you see any other themes in the book?

  • Never knew I wanted to be a breast cancer survivor

    Never knew I wanted to be a breast cancer survivor

    It is hard to believe, but true – The eBook version of first book is now available for pre-order on Amazon. The print version is coming soon – I’m just waiting on a proof before I release it. It has been quite the journey getting this far.

    The book started out as this blog.

    It was then an important chapter in my dissertation, but never got published because I walked away from the PhD.

    Now it is an eBook and will soon also have a print version. This is what I’ve really wanted all along. The PhD helped me to analyze the original posts for themes, and pull out the important stories from the blog, but it was the sharing of the story that is what I really wanted to do.

    The book tells my story from diagnosis until active treatment. My next project (and hopefully book) will be the first year after treatment. That time was in many ways so much harder for me than the year of treatment. It took a lot for me to figure out how to cope with the anxiety.

    What the book doesn’t include are the analyses that I did around the blog and the information I gleaned from the process. I will start to blog about these insights – because I think it is valuable information – and I also think is a good quick way to get it out. I guess I could create a companion guide for health educators that includes the insights from the dissertation. That is an interesting idea. I’m not sure how much demand there would be for it!

    I chose December 17 as the release date for the eBook – but I might change that. December 17 is my “cancerversary” – in that it is the day that I choose to acknowledge my experience and recognize it as the day the last known cancer was removed from my body. However, the print version of the book will likely be available for order sooner.

    I never thought I’d want to be a breast cancer survivor brings you into Becky’s world as a young breast cancer survivor. Written initially as a blog, Becky shares her experiences with treatment starting the day after she first heard the words “you have breast cancer”. Throughout her treatment, she explains her thought processes as she grapples with life altering treatment decisions: which chemotherapy regime? to reconstruct or not reconstruct?

    Humorous at times, serious at times, this memoire will have you laughing and crying as Becky shares her feelings but also what she is learning as she discovers what it means to be a breast cancer survivor.

  • Who’s value is it anyways?

    Who’s value is it anyways?

    I realized that I haven’t been blogging, but I’m feeling like I need to start doing it again. I need to start sharing more about what I’m doing with Treehouse Village and how I’m coping living in a small town in Nova Scotia. I feel like I’m a completely different person than the person who started this blog.

    The topic of this post is related to a decision that I made recently. I’ve been participating in this thing here they call “multisport” – the idea is that for 6 weeks, you get to experience a new sport each week. Each time, it is a two hour introduction to a sport. It is just enough to understand it and get a sense for what it is all about. The sports are sponsored by local clubs, so not only do you learn a new sport, you also learn how you can get involved if you want to. It is really about helping people get out and get active.

    Last week the sport was pickleball. I had only recently heard of it, but it is a big thing around here. I had no idea what it was – just that it was some kind of raquette sport somewhat related to tennis, badminton, and table tennis. I really enjoyed it, to the point where I went out and found at least one place I could go an play it. If I decide I want to, I can go to beginners drop in pickleball at the Michelin Social Club on Tuesdays and Thursdays from noon to 2pm. However, my body didn’t really appreciate pickleball. I don’t know if it was just that I had the wrong kind of shoes, but my hips were not happy – and it took the better part of a week to fully recover (of course going on 3km walks on the beach didn’t really help the recovery process).

    This week the sport was boxing. I remember from the summer session of multisport that I really enjoyed boxing. I went into it with an open mind but didn’t expect to like it. It had never occurred to me that it might be something that I’d enjoy. It turns out the local boxing club is a lot of fun. What is also interesting is the next day I didn’t feel bad. It seems to be a sport that my body actually likes!

    In the summer, I noted that I really enjoyed boxing but didn’t give it another thought. The idea of a sport that is about fighting didn’t appeal to me – but I now realize that it wasn’t that. I was more concerned about what others might think if I mention that I’m boxing. I was more worried about what others might think than about what I actually think. The thing is, boxing gets a bad rap – where other sports which are also about fighting are scene more as working the mind and making a mind-body connection and all that – boxing is seen more as bar fighting – which it totally isn’t. I have now learned that a lot of it is about technique and patterns, and learning to focus and control your body.

    After doing boxing for multisport this week, I decided I would give the regular classes a try. There is a fun “stress relief” class that is Mondays and Fridays at 4pm for an hour. When we did our boxing experience with multisport, it was two hours which really stretched my stamina. One hour is much more manageable for me at this point in time. So tonight I did it. I went to a regular class and I loved it. It felt so good to get out of the headspace I was in before the class and after an hour of focusing and punching things I felt a lot better.

    When coming to the decision to go to a regular class, I realized that I was letting other peoples’ values (or my perception of other peoples’ values) get in the way of doing something that is good for me, and good for my body. If this is something that I enjoy and it is a class I’m willing to go to on a regular basis, then it is something that I should not be ashamed to do. And so, I’m doing it. I’m going to give it a try for a month or two and see where I’m at after that. If tonight’s class was any indication, I’m going to feel a whole lot better.

  • 51 – 53 of 75: Getting lost and Thomas Raddall Provincial Park

    51 – 53 of 75: Getting lost and Thomas Raddall Provincial Park

    I’m not sure how long this challenge is going to take me, but life and world sure seem to be slowing me down.

    51 was a hike a Indian Garden Farms. This is different than Indian Path Common. Indian Garden Farms is a new trail that at times is poorly marked. My hiking buddy and I keep getting lost – which often involves unnecessarily walking around farmers fields and going in circles. You can clearly see the farmer’s field in our route!

    52 and 53 were walks / hikes at Thomas Raddall Provincial Park. The park has some of the nicest private sites of any of the campgrounds. It also has an amazing campers beach. The beach doesn’t look like much at first, but as you walk over to the rocks you nice another crescent beach, and then another. Like most South Shore beaches, they aren’t much at high tide, but they are spectacular at low tide. I can also report that the ocean has warmed up considerably. I enjoyed a lovely ocean swim – I believe this was my first ocean swim since moving to Nova Scotia, as we usually opt to swim in the various freshwater lakes. I can see us going to Thomas Raddall again. It is just over an hours drive from home.

    Of course when I was swimming Cali wanted to come visit me. The water was super shallow, so I wasn’t swimming so much as walking on my hands. It was too deep for Cali to walk so she swam out to me and then climbed on my back! I became Becky the island!

    In the afternoon, while the tide was high, we went out for a hike. We tried to follow a trail, but it wasn’t particularly well maintained. We ended up missing the turn off and out to the beach again. This time, the water was up to the rocks, so we had to scramble over rocks to get back to the main beach. Getting lost seems to be a bit of a theme.

  • 41 – 50 of 75: New beaches and more

    41 – 50 of 75: New beaches and more

    Sorry, I’m behind and writing blogs. I’m also a little behind on my hikes. I had not anticipated the competition that paddleboarding and water sports would have on my desire to hike during the summer.

    1. Cherry Hill Beach (July 21)
    2. Cape Sable Island Beach (July 26)
    3. Ellenwood Provincial Park (July 27)
    4. Cape Sable Island Beach (July 28)
    5. Crescent Beach (July 30)
    6. Cherry Hill Beach (Aug 1)
    7. Crescent Beach (Aug 8)
    8. Crescent Beach (Aug 12)
    9. Mowing the lawn (Aug 14)
    10. Indian Path Common (Aug 15)

    Given where I’m at now, I’m going to have to extend this challenge into the month of September. This is OK because we have postponed a vacation until then and I typically get a lot more hiking in while on vacation.

  • 32 – 40 of 75: Cherry Hill & Blomidon

    32 – 40 of 75: Cherry Hill & Blomidon

    If you haven’t figured it out by now, my go to beach walking spot is Cherry Hill Beach.

    32 – June 27, 33 – June 29, 34 – Cherry Hill Beach

    35 – July 5 – Mowing the lawn!

    36 – July 7 – Indian Garden Farms – This is a ‘local’ farm that has created a hiking trail around the periphery of the farm. It is the closed place for a quick hike. In this case, it turned into a 5km hike because we got lost a couple of times and ended up circumnavigating a couple of the fields!

    37 – July 10, 38 – July 11 – Cherry Hill Beach

    39 – July 12, 40 – July 13 – Blomidon Provincial Park

    Some fun pictures from the walks.

  • 28 – 31 of 75: Five Islands Provincial Park

    28 – 31 of 75: Five Islands Provincial Park

    28 was another mowing of the lawn. My GPS says I walked over 5km in the process of mowing. It certainly felt like a work out!

    29 – 30 were hikes to (and on) the beach at 5 Islands Provincial Park which is located on Minas Basin as part of the Bay of Fundy. This means some spectacular tides.

    We has a lovely view from our campsite, although it was a drizzly kind of day.

    When we first arrived, I walked from our campsite down to the beach (1km each way) and then around the campground we were camped in. It was drizzly when I left, and outright raining by the time I got back to the van, so Cali and I got very wet. We had a brief explore of what exists of the beach at high tide when we were down there.

    Then, the next morning, we went for a walk during low tide. I took a few photos which I think look interesting when you compare them!

    One of the islands at high and low tide
    Beach at high and low tide. That is the same island in the distance. When the tides are really low, you can walk to the island.
    View of the cliffs during low tide. We were warned that the part of the beach that Scott is standing on is under water at high tide, so we needed to be back before the tide rolled in too far!

    31 – After a lunch break, we went out on a second hike for the day – this one was a trail along the upper edge of the cliffs. It provided some great views. We didn’t quite get a clear view of the final cliff because the trail was getting questionable so we decided it was prudent that we turn around!

    The next day the weather cleared and the sun came out – showing us just how beautiful the view was from our campsite.

    After camping at Five Islands, we headed over to Joggins Fossil Cliffs before heading over to visit family in Fredericton.

    Although the beach wasn’t that far away, it was a very different beach. Rather than the Minas Basin, this is the Bay of Fundy on the Nova Scotia side looking towards New Brunswick. The fossil cliffs create a beach full of rocks of varying types and sizes. I felt like some of the rocks were full of stories. We noticed that there was a line of “black” rocks that aligned with the high tide lines. When we picked them up, they were really light. I thought at the time that they felt like coal, and it appears the area is also known for coal mining.

  • 25 – 27: Cherry Hill and the Cemetery

    25 – 27: Cherry Hill and the Cemetery

    25: Cherry Hill Beach on Saturday with a friend from Ottawa who was visiting. The tides were a little high, so we ended up climbing over rocks to get to the end of the beach.

    26: Cherry Hill Beach on Sunday with my regular walking friend. This time the tides were a little more favourable, which meant we could walk the full length of the beach without having to walk on the rocks. Interestly, my tracker measured a full 1/2 km less on this walk. With the lower water we had a shorter distance to walk!

    Cherry Hill Beach – Saturday and Sunday – what a difference tides make!

    27: The Cemetery. I’d hear there were a lot of nice paths for walking around the cemetery in Bridgewater. When we drove by the other day, after our Cherry Hill walk, we noticed how amazing the rhododendrons looked. That got us thinking that we should try a walk around the cemetery. Since the weather was threatening – we managed to get out for an hour, explore the cemetery, and get home before the sky released a wall of rain. We even saw some turtles in the pond.

    Three turtles vying for space on a log.
  • 24 of 75 – Green Bay

    24 of 75 – Green Bay

    There is hiking trail between Green Bay and Broad Cove. On the map it is called Bear Trap Road.

    Because it was low tide, we walked for 2 km almost all on the beach. On the way bay we followed the path – which involved walking in long grass (a favourite place for ticks). We did find a several of the bigger ticks on us when we got to the van, a couple of which were embedded. Fortunately, we have a tick removal kit in the van and we were able to remove the embedded ones. The others just brush off. We also brushed Cali to try to remove any that she may have picked up.

    The hike itself is quite beautiful but it was a very difficult beach to walk on – the sand and rocks were mostly soft, so there was a lot of extra effort involved in walking.

  • 20 – 23 of 75 – Beaches and Developments

    20 – 23 of 75 – Beaches and Developments

    20: A walk at Beach Meadows Beach on Tuesday May 31.

    21: Mowing the lawn. I’m not sure if this is a cheat or not, but I did put on my tracker while I was pushing the lawn more back and forth and clocked more than 3km while mowing! Friday June 3

    22: Rissers Beach. We are camping so this was a lovely after dinner walk in the fog at low tide. I was worried that it would be too busy, but it being a school night while the kids are still in school meant that the part is not too busy. We managed a walk on the beach with only running into one other group of people – it might have been because it was foggy!

    23: Rissers Beach and Atlantic Breezes. We found a new trail that started out from the group campsite at Rissers. It was well established so we followed it thinking that it might bring out back to the campsite. It didn’t. After climbing some stairs we discovered the trail was part of a 1.9km system of well maintained trails that are part of the development – Atlantic Breezes.

    At the end of the hike we decided to check out the canteen at the park. It turned out to be a food truck with fresh fish and chips. Initially they couldn’t do gluten free, but then she realized she could pan fry me a piece of fish. I couldn’t eat the fries as the oil was cross contaminated, but they also had some plain lays potato chips – so I fish and chips, just a different kind of chips! The fish was very fresh and amazing.

    We snuck in an additional walk at low tide during sunset. It was stunning. The pictures don’t really capture the waves and how they seem to glow in the fading light.

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