I used to see myself as someone with lots of tenacity. It is what got me through tough days on our Going East bike tour, but also the tough days during chemo. I walk through the queasiness and neuropathy pain. I exercised every day! Now that I’m no longer in active treatment, I’m finding it more…
I had all these great plans about what blog post I would write as I approach the one year mark … I was going to count how many doctors appointments I’ve had in the last year, but when I looked at the calendar for last June I almost lost it. I just could not go…
I’ve come across friends’ posts in both my cancer world and my non-cancer world were people are comparing themselves to others in such a way that makes them feel less of themselves. The first was in a cancer post. Someone who had a smaller cancer, which had not spread, such that treatment didn’t need chemotherapy.…
There are times when I am made to feel like a hypochondriac – those seem to be the times that one of the nurses at my oncologists office dismisses my latest concern as “not a problem”. It means that the next time something comes up, I find that I ask myself whether or not it…
I’m laughing at the title of this post. The two things are completely unrelated, but I didn’t feel like writing two posts. Saturday, we flew back from Vancouver, with just enough time to drop our stuff off at Scott’s office, grab dinner, then head to the Bryan Adams concert at Shoreline Amphitheater in Mountain View.…
I mentioned in my previous post, that I’m in active recovery. I’ve decided that this is a thing, a new term, something that I’m going to start using when people ask me about where I am in my cancer journey. The terms used are usually active treatment, and recovery and renewal. The latter doesn’t truly…
This week I spent a lot of time visiting with friends – all friends from before I began my cancer journey. It was so great to get a chance to see people again, and to receive so many hugs 🙂 I am saddened by the loss of friends who cannot cope with my illness, but…
Every time I hear someone say “and that’s OK”, I’m brought back to our couples support group. At the beginning of each group, we went around the room a few times saying something and finishing the statement with “and that’s OK”. For example, Today I’m feeling tired, and that’s OK. The exercise gives you permission to…
I’ve been travelling now for over a week. Prior to this trip, I went to Texas for 5 days. After this trip, I’m going on a 10 day vacation. I’m tired and I find myself craving routine rather than adventure. I feel like I’m not strong enough yet – I need more time to heal…
At the conference last month in Texas, my cue was the name. If someone called me Becky, I knew that they had read at least part of this blog – if they called me Rebecca they knew me in a more professional context. Calling me Becky signalled that the person knew at least part of my…
