As frustrating as it may be, the reality is that healing takes time … and lots of it … calendar time … it isn’t something that you can speed up no matter how much you will it to. People will often ask me how my neuropathy is. At the moment, it is mostly just painful.…
Sometimes, when you are living it, you focus on one perspective and miss everything else around it. Sometimes all it takes is a friend to make a comment that helps you re-see the issue from a different perspective. The theory behind cognitive behavioural therapy is that you can change how you feel by changing how…
One thing about California – the closet sliding doors are often made of full length mirrors. This means that every day, after my shower, as I walk passed the closet to the bedroom, I see naked self in the mirror. In many ways, this has helped me heal. It has helped me see myself –…
I’m feeling rather stuck lately. This is not being helped by my network, we seems to be posting things that are depressing rather than up lifting. I haven’t written much on this blog lately because I don’t want to contribute more to the depressing nature of the posts that going around on my cancer network.…
This post was originally posted on my other blog, but I thought people who read this one might also find it interesting… The first activity in #clmooc is to create an un-introduction – or really a re-introduction – that is to introduce yourself in a different way. A way that involves making and remixing. At…
I’m struggling to overcome inertia and get back into exercising. I find it easy to make excuses – or to delay just getting out there – or feel that I don’t have enough time to go for a bike ride. In some ways it was easier during chemo. There were no expectations on my time.…
Crossing my stream this morning was a post by Cancer Curmudgeon about her post-cancer Mean Streak. I read it and I thought, what has cancer changed in me? I’ve thought a lot about this lately. There are three things that come to my mind: (1) I’m more selfish, (2) It’s easier to say no, and (3)…
I’ve noticed that lately I’m a lot more aware of these appendages on my chest, which have no feeling, and my surgeons continue to remind me “are not breasts” even though they look an awful lot like breasts, and when you touch them, they kinda feel like breasts. But alas, they are not breasts, in…
A year ago today, I went to see my primary care (family) doctor about a hard spot on my left breast just below the clavicle. I was sure it was nothing and that I was just over reacting, but figured that it was worth a visit to the doctor just to be sure. I didn’t…
When meeting new people, I’m often asked What do you do? For the last three years I’ve been able to say that I’m a PhD Student. I’ve been able to say that I’m a scholar. But now I’m struggling with that identity. I’m struggling with who I am. The last time someone asked What do…
