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Cell biology video
Read more: Cell biology videoI wanted to share this video clip in part because I didn’t want to lose it. What amazes me is that after Project LEAD I actually understand at least part of it. I’ll need to go back over my notes at some point and try to decode the rest of it. Either way, it is…
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A long overdue update
Read more: A long overdue updateSorry, it has been awhile since I have written anything. Life has been a little crazy – and I haven’t crashed yet – but I know it should happen. I’m in a state of no emotions right now. Last Saturday (a week ago), I attended an all day writing retreat with BAYS. It was truly…
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Alternate reality
Read more: Alternate realityI feel a little like I’ve been in an alternate reality for the last three months, and I’m only slowly emerging back out of it. It has been two weeks since my mom passed away. A week and a day since I placed her urn into the grave, facing my father. That was July 7…
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Grief is a weird thing
Read more: Grief is a weird thingGrief is weird. I am struck by waves of empathy. When my dad died, the thing that made me cry the most was the thought of what my mother was going through. It was the empathy for her that brought on waves of tears more than anything else. Right now, what brings on the wave…
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It was so fast … Kathleen Hogue (nee Kish) passed July 1, 2018
Read more: It was so fast … Kathleen Hogue (nee Kish) passed July 1, 2018It happened very quickly. Mom was not in pain. In the morning, her breathing had been especially strained. When the nurse came, she gave a few more meds – ones that I could inject into a subcutaneous catheter. They were mostly to help with anxiety. We had a lovely Saturday, with visits from her grandkids…
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Fatigue …
Read more: Fatigue …The Cyberknife brain radiation certainly made mom tired. We were expecting it, at least partially, because she was tired going into it and her body is fighting off the cancer. Monday we had an oncologist appointment. Mom had a bunch of different symptoms and we could not tell what might be cause by Sutent (sunitinib…
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Annoyed
Read more: AnnoyedI wrote this on Sunday, June 24th – one week before mom passed away. I saved it as private, because I needed to write it, but I also wasn’t willing to share it while mom was alive. I didn’t want to be the nay-sayer, or the one in the family who did not have a…
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Uncertainty
Read more: UncertaintyToday’s theme is uncertainty. I don’t do uncertainty well. I never have. Cancer hasn’t really changed that. This morning I was uncertain about whether or not mom should go to the hospital. I felt the pressure of knowing that someday, likely soon, I will have to make that call. Fortunately, not today. My hubby highlighted…
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Weirdness …
Read more: Weirdness …I cannot describe it any other way than weirdness. On Friday we went up to Hamilton again in order for mom to have a repeat brain MRI. We are going to try again this Friday for the cyberknife treatment. It was weird watching the MRI tech place the IV in mom prior to the MRI.…
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Progression
Read more: ProgressionProgression. It is one of the words you never want to hear. It means that cancer is growing – it is getting worse. For a couple of weeks now, mom has been noticing some shortness of breath. It has been getting progressively worse. We set up on oncology appointment on Monday before the schedule cyberknife…
