Three years and counting ∼ BC Becky

Anxiety and oncology visits

Fri December 7, 2018

Many cancer patients and survivors experience what we affectionately call scanxiety - that is anxiety around taking scans. I realized while swimming this afternoon that I experience anxiety around…

An escape to Indian Wells and the desert

Tue December 4, 2018

Emotional Journey

When I found out that a friend from Ottawa was going to be in Indian Wells (near Palm Springs) for a conference, I seriously considered going to visit her.…

Lots of updates – missing dates – Lori’s memorial – getting back to the gym

Tue November 20, 2018

Emotional Journey

For the first couple of years, every one of my treatment milestones was something I looked back on. I know the dates, but now I don't necessarily recognize them.…

An afternoon off

Thu November 15, 2018

Emotional Journey

The fires up north are causing horrible air quality in the Bay Area. Today got worse, so now it is unhealthy for anyone to be outdoors. Fortunately, I have…

Writing

Fri November 9, 2018

Caregiving

I realized today, while having a writing session with my academic supervisor, that I haven't been writing lately. Not for this blog, but also not for any of my…

Checkups and practicing grief

Fri October 12, 2018

Emotional Journey

This week I had my one year check-up with my surgeon. The timing was good, as I wanted to get checked out because of the new bought of lymphedema.…

Powerful, tearful, and memorable weekend at Commonweal

Mon October 8, 2018

Caregiving

When Lori mentioned to me that the MBC (Metastatic Breast Cancer) weekend at Commonweal - two and half day retreat for young (those diagnosed with breast cancer under 45) women with…

Chai Tea? Nope, California Bay Leaf

Sun September 30, 2018

Three years and counting

Some of you know that I love to hike. Several times while hiking I noticed a distinct smell - that smelled to me like Chai Tea. For the longest…

I can see – mostly

Thu September 27, 2018

Emotional Journey

One of the challenges I'm having now is figuring out who in my family to tell things to. I didn't blog about this sooner because I didn't know who…

Mountain Biking and Wilder Ranch

Sun September 23, 2018

Survivorship

Yesterday we rented mountain bikes and went for our second ride - having doing a "tour" a couple weeks ago that involved a few small lessons. The lessons came…