BC Becky

Never thought I'd want to be a breast cancer survivor

Tag: visualizing

  • Mouth sores & First cycle symptoms

    For the last few days I’ve been discovering what chemo mouth sores feel like. Earlier I had a few canker sores. I usually get them when my iron is low, which also happens with chemo, so I was supplementing iron which mostly kept the cankers to a minimum. Then I got a true chemo mouth sore. It is nothing like a canker sore. It formed on the side of my tongue, which apparently is particularly sensitive (ouch).

    There are many mouth wash recipes on the Internet, so I asked Scott to find one and make me a mouth wash from a recipe for treating mucositis (he made it in a small nalgene bottle for me):

    • 14 oz of warm water
    • 1 Tablespoon Baking Soda
    • 1/4 Teaspoon Salt

    It seems to be working. I used it last night and this morning (and after anytime I eat) and the sores are starting to get better. I now know why the doctors ask “can you eat”, as the concern isn’t the sore itself (that is a chemo side effect, and it will eventually heal), their concern is that you are eating enough so that you stay healthy overall. Fortunately, among the odd prescriptions I got from emergency (even the dermatologist was confused by this one) was a bottle of oral viscus lidocaine (like the dentist uses before putting in a needle), which is used to help provide symptomatic relief of the mouth sores to allow you to eat. So, for this one, I was prepared in advance.

    I’ve created a little chart for my oncologist (and myself to allow for planning next cycle) of my various chemo symptoms in the first cycle (if you think something similar would be useful for yourself, send me an email and I’ll send you the template – it is done in Powerpoint). I will use it when I next see the oncologist to get him to write in the preventative section at the bottom information about when I should not swim, and any other activities I should be limiting at various times, as well as when I can and cannot take NSAIDs. I’m finding that I need the visualization to better understand things – and I want to make sure that I’m not being too cautious about swimming, as it is something that I need for my mental health – especially if biking may involve blistering.

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  • A new visualization

    Didn’t sleep well last night and I’m feeling like I’m not get in enough biking, so decided to go back to bed and then go for a bike ride this afternoon.

    Sleeping, I had this crazy dream. I was in my parents back yard (except it was a lot more elaborate with a tiered swimming pool. The yard (as well as the one across the path – interesting the path was like the back yard in Kitimat) both had kids drinking, doing drugs, and swimming in the pools. It was a wild party (for some reason the gates were low chain link and they didn’t have locked doors). I came down and started yelling: GET OUT, GET the F*$K OUT, going from person to person. They were being difficult, moving along slowly, but I kept yelling. I went to use the phone, which looked more like an ear cleaning syringe thing (see image):

    Only I talked to the bulb end and said “call 911” and put the other end in my ear. I got a message (sort of like Siri) saying “sorry we cannot help you right now, we are busy doing something else” … I screamed … and then I woke up.

    It had me thinking, the pool is sort of like a metaphor for my body, and the uninvited guests partying and making a mess of the pool and yard are like cancer … and I was screaming “GET OUT, GET the F*$K OUT” …

    It might prove to be an interesting visualization during my next chemo treatment … not exactly little pacmen going about chomping on cancer cells (although that worked conceptually, I didn’t really buy into it) … not completely sure how this visualization would work …

    We’ll see, either way, it felt good to yell, even if it was just in a dream …

    and now for a cup of coffee!

     

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