One of the interesting feelings that seems to be shared amount those who go through traumatic life experiences (cancer / sudden tumor), is that of guilt – particularly of guilt when you are feeling better or when you are in the presence of others who are sharing a similar but different experiences. One of the…
My post this morning was a little rushed, so I missed a few interesting details. The big question for everyone was why is this happening on my hands and not anywhere else. Most people who have this complication see it on hands and feet or hands/feet/mouth. Several doctors were looking for other locations for the…
So my last post on more extreme reactions didn’t exactly get it right. With the blisters still progressing I called the on-call oncologist who didn’t think it was related to the chemo. The location of the sores and my comments about allergic reaction sent her on the wrong track. I took a couple Benadryl as…
I’m discovering that my allergic reactions to things are heighten now that I’m on chemo. I have this odd reaction to kale. When I eat it (or chard) within 24hrs I get little blisters on my hands, they start small and painful and over a day grow into blisters about 5mm across. Once they reach there…
I find the reaction to the colour pink interesting. You see, I’ve always liked wearing pink, but not breast cancer pink (or as my reiki healer today called it Pepto Bismol pink). Since my diagnosis, I find it interesting the different reactions other people have to the colour pink. Mostly, it is a complete aversion…
Today was a mixed day. It began badly – actually it was more that last night ended badly. I was feeling pain in a way that I had never felt before. It is difficult to describe. They sometimes call it bone pain, but I would not call it that at all. It was like all…
So being the mobile geek that I am, I figured there had to be an app that would be useful for tracking when I am taking various medication as they all have very different durations, and when you add in all the non-prescription medications and chemo brain, it becomes impossible to track in ones head.…
Step one was to have the access placed into my port. This allows the nurse to draw blood for blood tests, but is also used for the infusion of chemo itself. Since they need to wait for the blood test results, we had about a half hour between the blood draw and the appointment with…
In all my pushes to make sure I’m getting enough exercise, I had lost sight of my need for sleep – or a least a little more sleep than I usually get. I got quite a bit of sleep last night, but by 2pm I was knackered. I had to realize that I should stop…
I find myself living between two worlds – or perhaps more – negotiating my different identities. Anyone who gets breast cancer under 45 is considered to be ‘young’, so I’m re-negotating what it means to be a young cancer patient. In church, we had groups for young adults age 18-35 and I remember the very…
