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Living Pathography – An Open Dissertation blog
Read more: Living Pathography – An Open Dissertation blogI have decided to brush off the domain I had originally setup for my dissertation. I have much better sense of where the project is going – so I’m using that blog as a way to share my writing as I write, and my field notes and ideas as they occur to me. It is…
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Overwhelmed with a huge sense of denial
Read more: Overwhelmed with a huge sense of denialAs part of my PhD research, I’m reading through this blog. It is an interesting experience. I wrote the blog, but I haven’t really read it. And I certainly haven’t read through multiple months at a time, from the beginning tracing through my journey – reflecting on what I wrote versus what I now remember…
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Yosemite and snarky comments on Facebook
Read more: Yosemite and snarky comments on FacebookAs I write this, I’m thinking about our last vacation. I really noticed over Christmas that my posts were missing something. I kept thinking about the snarky comments my father used to leave on my Facebook posts. I find myself checking for the comments that don’t come. I miss you dad. Tunnel View Last weekend…
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Lupron woes
Read more: Lupron woesI’m coming to the end of my three month cycle with lupron. That is, every three months I get an injection of lupron to suppress my ovaries. This is part of my cancer treatment – hormone therapy. What I am finding is that as I come to the end of the cycle I get really…
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Driving, chemobrain, and respectfully acknowledging side effects
Read more: Driving, chemobrain, and respectfully acknowledging side effectsWhile driving back from a nice long weekend at Yosemite, I found myself singing along to music while simultaneously navigating through an interchange of highway on and off ramps, to get to the right place. What struck me then, was that I must be getting back to some form of cognitive health. Cancer plays havoc…
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Identity
Read more: IdentityAs part of the PhD process, I’ve been reading through my blog from the beginning. I wrote it, but I have never actually read it – at least not in this way. I am immediately struck by how my memory of the time doesn’t completely align with what I wrote. I know that what I…
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More time together
Read more: More time togetherI recall someone mentioning that one of the things they enjoyed during treatment was all the extra time they spent with their spouse. This is something that had not really occurred to me. My hubby and I spent every waking moment (pretty much) together for 16-months while on our bike trip. Then we spent 1…
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I almost didn’t go …
Read more: I almost didn’t go …My proposal for a paper presentation at the Health Humanities Consortium Conference in Houston in March was accepted. When I was first accepted I was really excited about it. Then the plane tickets cost a little more than I’d like. I found myself doubting – do I really want to go? I found myself justifying…
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Fear – the neighbour that just won’t go away
Read more: Fear – the neighbour that just won’t go awayI’ve been thinking in metaphors lately – perhaps because I’m reading some autoethnographies that seem to describe experiences using metaphors. As I read through and tag / analyze blog posts from August 2014 – during my last round of AC chemo – I’m struck by how few of them talk about fear. I remember trying…
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Emotional memory
Read more: Emotional memoryI’m finding it a little weird that lately I’ve been having memories – almost flashbacks but not as vivid – of the time around my diagnosis. We aren’t at an anniversary of it … that is still 5 months away. It is why I’m finding it all rather strange. And the memories aren’t terribly vivid…
