Tag Archives: preparations

I’m ready

I am so ready to make the transition from someone with breast cancer to someone fighting breast cancer. Tomorrow morning, bright and early, I begin chemotherapy – assuming the heart ultrasound and blood tests say I’m healthy. Ironic (in an Alanis Morissette kinda way), the idea of being in ‘excellent health’ and having cancer at the… Read More »

The Cactus Garden

Today was mostly a quiet day, with a great visit from a friend, and a quick trip up to Stanford for an EKG (baseline prior to chemo). Since I arrived early, they seem to have a habit of telling me my appointments are 20-30 minutes before they actually schedule the appointment, I took the extra… Read More »

The Power Port or Dignity Port

So, I had my port installed yesterday. The interventional radiologist that installed it told me he was installing a Power Port, but the package they gave me calls it a Dignity port – so now I don’t know what kind of port they actually installed! I’ll have to make a phone call over to interventional radiology… Read More »

Sailing and support groups

Our day began with a sail around San Francisco Bay on the 2003 America’s Cup boat USA 76 (it was the 76 boat of its type built). It was particularly cool sailing under the Golden Gate Bridge. We thoroughly enjoyed our trip out and are strongly considering their annual pass, which would allow us to… Read More »

The challenge of time and holding a thought

Right now I’m finding that my biggest challenge is time. Things are moving so very quickly, and I’m trying to manage many different appointments, phone calls, blog posts, an other notifications and minute (not sure I’ve spelled that right, just say it with a French accent). Most of yesterday was spent dealing with my eyes.… Read More »

The role of fate in my life

Although I don’t believe in a god per se, I do believe in some form of fate. Throughout our bicycle journey (http://goingeast.ca/blog) we often felt that something was looking out for us. When I started my PhD, I reflected on fate here. I think that fate played a role in helping me be prepared for the challenges… Read More »

Humour in the moment – which boobs should I wear?

In this moment, we (Scott and I) often find ourselves laughing at things that are rather absurd, but real none-the-less. I recognize it clearly as a coping mechanism, and something that is definitely needed. But I’m also aware of how easily something funny can turn into something not funny. I recall back in my undergrad… Read More »

How do you prepare to lose a body part?

When the surgeon told me that most likely I would need a mastectomy I did not really internalize what that meant. When a new friend mentioned that it was like an amputation, that in some ways helped me see the scope of the surgery. It becomes even more real when I think that this could… Read More »