Tag Archives: decisions

Knowing what to expect

“In my experience, fear comes from not knowing what to expect and not feeling you have any control over what’s about to happen. When you feel helpless, you’re far more afraid than you would be if you knew the facts. If you’re not sure what to be alarmed about, everything is alarming.” (Chris Hatfield in… Read More »

Long day at Stanford

   Our day began by driving up to Stanford early so that we could avoid too much rush hour stress. We decided to check out breakfast at the cancer center. We shan’t be bothering with that plan again, as all the options involved eggs which I cannot eat that often. Oh Well. The coffee was… Read More »

Double-mastectomy and chemo

If I’m repeating myself, I apologize. One thing that I’ve noticed over the last two or three days is that my short-term memory sucks. I cannot seem to hold thoughts for that long, and I am very often walking into a room having completely forgotten why I was there. Worse, is that I sit in… Read More »

And so it begins

The slow start to yesterday meant that I didn’t get my second blog post written. I shall try and get caught up today (before I completely forget what I was going to write about), but no guarantees. So yesterday we received some mixed news about the pathology. Specifically, the cancer in both breasts is IDC (invasive ductal… Read More »

Humour in the moment – which boobs should I wear?

In this moment, we (Scott and I) often find ourselves laughing at things that are rather absurd, but real none-the-less. I recognize it clearly as a coping mechanism, and something that is definitely needed. But I’m also aware of how easily something funny can turn into something not funny. I recall back in my undergrad… Read More »

How do you prepare to lose a body part?

When the surgeon told me that most likely I would need a mastectomy I did not really internalize what that meant. When a new friend mentioned that it was like an amputation, that in some ways helped me see the scope of the surgery. It becomes even more real when I think that this could… Read More »