Category Archives: Research Data

The Cost of Appearances

In reading the chapter ‘The Cost of Appearances’ in Arthur Frank’s (1991) At the Will of the Body, reminded me of my first Doxorubicin (Adriamycin other wise referred to as A chemo) chemotherapy injection. I wrote about the experience very briefly in a post The First Day Of Chemo on my blog. In my blog post,… Read More »

Overwhelmed with a huge sense of denial

As part of my PhD research, I’m reading through this blog. It is an interesting experience. I wrote the blog, but I haven’t really read it. And I certainly haven’t read through multiple months at a time, from the beginning tracing through my journey – reflecting on what I wrote versus what I now remember… Read More »

Food Angst … never surrender

For much of my adult life, my diet has been about control. I can choose to control what I eat, and as a control freak that is important. I’ve tried several different diets to no avail. Mostly, I’ve learned that my body doesn’t like some foods and it likes others. I’m lactose intolerant but my… Read More »

Not talking = not blogging

I’m amused that over the last few days it has been extremely difficult for me to talk, and somehow that has resulted in me not blogging. I find myself wondering if it is because I cannot even talk to myself! But then, I usually write in my head. Truthfully, it is probably because I haven’t… Read More »

Feeling my nadir today

For the last couple of rounds of AC, I’ve actually felt quite strong on my nadir day (day of lowest blood counts). Today, I’m tired. My biggest struggle today is mouth sores. On the weekend I started to develop mouth sores (the ones on the underside of the tongue are especially painful) and along with… Read More »

A challenge for my Canadian friends (limited time offer)

So, my fundraising for the Avon Walk (equivalent to the weekend to end women’s cancers in Canada) has pretty much stalled. I know that I have a lot of Canadian readers, who won’t get tax receipts for donating to my Avon walk, so I have a deal for you. If you make a donation to… Read More »

Queen of wishful thinking

When it comes to the entire surgery process, I find myself falling into the realm of ‘queen of wishful thinking’. I had convinced myself that ‘flat’ was that way to go. I joined a great supportive Facebook group ‘Flat & Fabulous’ and found that I was creating a new vision of myself that involved a… Read More »

Reaching out

It is difficult when you are new to someplace to start to reach out and meet new people. It is especially difficult to reach out when you have cancer (and it is obvious). When I first moved to California, I spend a fair bit of my time trying to make connections with people here. I… Read More »