I find myself wondering if it is the weather. It has been raining most afternoons for the last week and a half or so. I’m finally able to walk and get out and exercise, but doing it is a challenge when the weather isn’t participating.
I’m also watching my friends defend their dissertations. I’m happy for them. I know just how much work is involved in getting to that point. A doctoral program is a huge investment in time and energy. It is a huge accomplishment that I’m happy to be celebrating with my friends. But on the other hand, it is reminding me of just how much more I have to do. It is reminding me that I’m behind. That I took 16-months off (really more than that, as I pretty much stopped in May when I was diagnosed, but the way the semester system works I was registered until August. So, I was away from it all for about 18-19 months.
The restart has been good for me. The cancer experience has given me a new passion to help me focus my research. I’m excited about the project I’ll be leading. I’m looking forward to the writing that will take me from where I am to finishing my PhD.
But these last two days I’ve been in a bit of a funk. I’m trying to figure out what will pull me out of it. I’ve called on a friend to go out to lunch. Perhaps that will help. I don’t know. I just know that I need to bounce back. I need to bounce back soon.
It looks like few have a few more days of this dreary weather ahead of us – but by mid next week the sun will be back. I will look forward to that and try to get ahead on some of my work so that I can enjoy it when it happens.
In other news, we are expecting to close on the purchase of a new place (a manufactured home) next week. It needs some renovations – but I’m really looking forward to moving into the new space and creating a real home out of it. Stay tuned for photos 🙂