I now see awe

By | March 2, 2016

For the last several months I’ve hated it when Facebook sent me reminders of my bald days. I couldn’t look at bald pictures of myself without feeling a sense of loss. I wanted to put that behind me. I didn’t want to see them. I didn’t want the wave of sadness that I felt every time they were presented to me.

Since Commonweal, I now see myself differently. When the picture popped up on my timeline, I saw the beauty in it. I was awe inspired by the strength I had at the time the picture was taken. It was taken the day before my first surgery (along with a series of nude photos that captured my post-chemo pre-surgery body). Never in my mind had I thought that I would one day be sitting in a studio in Berkley California posing nude for a photo shoot.

Now when I see the picture I am awe inspired. I see the strength that I had at that time. I see pure beauty in my eyes.  It is a wonderfully liberating transition. There is no sadness in it anymore, rather, there is a smile that I exchange with my self as if greeting a long time friend. It’s nice to see you again :-)

4 thoughts on “I now see awe

  1. scottx5

    Hey Rebecca, this is wonderful for you! The fear of losing yourself (and the power that self embodies) is something sooo hard to step away from. Congratulations, you look very determined.

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  2. Toni Garrett

    Hi Becky, I had to tell you that I really loved this! Thanks for sharing it.
    Toni

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